My Spiritual Journey In 2007, I did very well but one day God told me that I had to grow spiritually, and not just dwell in the same place. In that time I was attending my aunt’s church, which ended up seeming like fluff to me because there was no growth there at all. My friends had told me before about YWAM, and as I was praying to God to show me the place that I would receive that spiritual growth He gave me that missions school. He promised me that I would grow and He would take care of everything if I truly believed in Gods presence and believe in Him. I acted very quickly by speaking to one of my leaders. There was no place in YWAM at that time, but I trusted that the time would come.
In 2008, my aunt (Mrs. Cilo) got sick and I had to take care of her, but in March we had a small conflict and she ended up kicking me out of her home, so I had to go back home to my mom. Immediately when I got home, I heard a small voice from God saying: “She needs you”. It was so hard to hear that; I cried and I fasted a couple days to seek God, and lost weight because of that. She called to ask for forgiveness and to come back, she even mentioned that sometimes it’s because of pains and stress because her husband abandoned her, and she had cancer. No one took care of her and she had no children, so it was hard for her sometimes. By living alone, she had developed a short temper, so I had to forgive her because I understood the pain and the suffering. I decided to go back to her and God promised that everything was going to be fine. After that, we had a nice short time together. Her sickness got a lot worse and she really needed me in that time. I am thankful for God’s mercy because by myself, I would not have been able to forgive her for what she did. But God intervened and asked me to go back and take care of her in her last days of earth. It was painful. I had to come back at 11:00 am every day from work to give her medicine and make her lunch because her cancer had spread throughout her entire body and she couldn’t move by herself or stand for a long period of time.
I really saw God in me at that time because it was only the two of us. I took her to the hospital finally. She was so weak she couldn’t even wash herself so I cleaned her and we went to the hospital. She was there for a couple of days and passed away on the 27th of March 2008. Before her last day she gave me everything she had, even her car, but her husband came back and he fought me for the stuff his wife had given me. So I gave him everything. I had no choice, and rather than losing my life or getting hurt for the things that would pass, I chose the better way. God said: “We should make the Kingdom of Heaven our first priority” because it will never fade.
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